When there’s a fork in the road I rarely ever choose a path, in fact I go for the dirt road paved completely by me and a strong desire to ‘be free.’ I’ve been chasing after this feeling for years now and I can’t seem to find it; what does it look like? Where will it take me?
I’ve learned that in life nothing ever really goes as planned so I don’t plan anymore, I go with the flow, and even though sometimes the river bend puts me through a beating I only plan enough to stay alive and make my next move. Everyone tells me that this is no way to live, but why would I take advice from people who are just as messed up and confused as me? I know that you take teachings and lessons as they come, and our job is to try and implement the good and filter out the bad, but why does my life have to be based solely on old teachings and word of mouth? Experience, yes, but everyone is different, your day is much different than mine, your thoughts are not the same, I’m different, you’re different, so where does this lead? It’s a never-ending cycle that I aspire to break from, how? I don’t know, but I remain inspired and adamant that life cannot and will not be like this forever.
Excerpt from Wonderlust & City Dust: A Poetry Collection by Xavier Alexis
Available October 1st, 2020